selamat datang alam dewasa

hari ini 18 mac 2009..genap usiaku 21 tahun..ucapan hari lahir pertama dari kawan2 istimewa yg menyambut usia ini awal 2 hari..seterusnya ucapan2 dari teman2 sekolah,kolej,uniersiti,dan my beloved aunty..
tapi,seawal pagi tadi,mak call and make her wish..bergenang air mata i mendengarkan ucapan dan doa2 yg dikirimkan oleh seorang ibu..terima kasih mak..wanita ini banyak mengajar i tentang erti sebenar kehidupan..then,abah make his wish..this time,i dah tak mampu nak menahan air mata lagi..mendengarkan ucapan "selamat datang ke alam dewasa" betul2 telah membuatkan hati ini sayu..tapi,dalam sayu2 tu,sempat gak abah nk menyakat..katanya,tahun ni i tak bley dapat duit raya lagi..huhuhu.tak kire!nak duit raya jugak!haha..
mase i 12 tahun,kepala ni selalu membayangkan yg umur 21 tahun ni macam dah besar sangat..rancangan hidup masa tu,umur 21 ni dah kena ada kerja..pastu nak kawin..hishhh..otak budak2 sungguh!
i tak pernah terfikir utk belajar tinggi2..paling terbaek pun masa tu,nak amik diploma in mass comm..sebab masa tu tgh sangat gile dengan wan kamarudin.sampaikan impian terbesar hanya nak keja ngan wan kamarudin je..betul kata nasir,kadang2 kite tak tahu apa yang telah ditentukan utk kita..mungkin jalan yg ditentukan ini adalah yg terbaek hakikatnya..yang penting,kita kena selalu bersyukur dengan nikmat hidup dan rezeki yg diberikanNYA..

THANK U ALLAH =)

Semoga dengan pertambahan usia ni,semakin mematangkan cara pemikiran dan meningkatkan amalan..

blur tidak bertempat!

benci22222222!!!
arini i ader test m'sia derivatives..study bagai nak meletop since last week..macam2 kaedah digunakan.sampai la malam semalam,i sepatutnya kuar untuk berbisnes di kolej..tp,atas alasan ader test pada hari ini,dengan berat hatinya,terpaksa la biarkan my partners jer yg pegi..so,i kat umah ber'study' la..
bangun pagi td,still study lagi utk kesekian kalinya..sehingga la kepala ni mulai rasa berat sebelah.sakitnye...Allah je yg tahu..maybe b'coz of my sinus..takpe,i pun rilex jer melayan rasa sakit ni..huhuhu..
sampai jer kat kelas,i rase my head ni dah macam nak meletop pun ade gak..memikirkan test yg ade jer,i terpaksa kuatkan jugak spirit utk menjawab test..tengok soalan,hurmmmm..macam senang..bile i dah get ready utk menjawab,secara otomatiknya...semua formula2 yg dihafal,i LUPER!!!!Terus jadik blur and blank utk seketika..until,i start make myself feel relax and cool..but still,i couldn't remember it..huwaaaaaaaaa~
tension kot i tadi..tgk member2 jawab dengan kelajuan maksima plus dengan muka yg konfiden..me?still struggling to answer it..semuanya salah diri sendiri..too confident masa awal2 tadi and lately ni i tak menjaga kesihatan..main rembat jer .moral of the story:"sediakan payung sebelum hujan"tp,i tak suke sediakan payung sebab dah ader org tolong payungkan =) hehehe..

frappucino ice blended feelings...

~unexplainable feelings~

that's all i can say at this hour..hurmmm..
something that i rarely feels,but now..
it suddenly knock out me..
hey,come on la..
just tell me what do you want from me..
don't treat me like i don't have any feelings..
if you feel like you are good+brave enough to face the reality..
come on!
just tell me..what do you feel..



from deep inside my heart on:
-thursday
at:
-0257 am
-best place ever in baiduri
situation:
-frappucino ice blended feelings..

1st Tyme kena TAG~~

Yuhhu..(tidak menggambarkan perasaan sebenar).okeyh,1st of all,thanks to alyaa cz tagging me =).walaupon telah terlewat menjawabnya,at least i jawab jugak kay..

A) People who have been tagged must write their answers in their blog.
B) Tag 8 people to do this quiz. (Those that are tagged cannot refuse.)
C) Continue this game by tagging 8 other people.

1.What have you been doing recently?

~study..KOT!~

2.Do you ever turn your cell phone off?

~Yup..especially when i dun want anybody disturb me~

3.What happened at 10am today?

~just finish my monetary eco test..phewww..

4.When did you last cry?

~dun remember..mayb last year..

5.Believe in fate/destiny?

~of course!~

6.What do you want in your life now?

~be a successful student,successful bizneswoman,good daughter,good wife,good mother

and a good person~

7.Do you carry an umbrella when it rains or just put up your hood?

~i dun bring umbrella..cz luv to share with siddiq..hahaha~

8.What's your favourite thing to do on the bed?-

~sleep la..what else?~

9.What bottoms are you wearing now?-

~i wear baju kurung..(gadis melayu+jawa terbaek.)~

10.What's the nicest things in your inbox?

~k.yong,nak oder cupcakes 26 mac ni.block ur diary dear..buleyh?haha..~

11.Do you tend to make the relationship complicated?

~right now,maybe yess..~

12.Are you wearing anything borrowed from anyone?-

~yeah..tudung ika~

13.What was the last movie you caught?

~madagascar 2~

14.What are you proud of?

~i'm proud of being myself =) ~

15.What does the oldest text msg in your inbox say?-

~b,nape u tukar celcom? ~

16.What was the last song you sang out loud?-

~dan sebenar by yuna~

17.Do you have any nicknames?

~k.yong for family,zati for friends,ti for closest friends.~

18.What does the newest text say?

~awk x on9 ke? ~

19.What time did you go to bed last night?-

~ mayb 2330 cz i dun realize at wat actual tyme i landing on my bed.until mizah ask me to

sleep properly..hehe..juz lyke a kids~

20.Are you currently happy?

~nope..

21.Who gives you the best advise?

~my parents~

22.Do you eat whipped cream straight from the can?

~giler ke hape?~

23.Who did you talk on the phone last night?

~mak yg terchenta~

24.Is something bugging you now?

~yeah~

25.Who was the last person to make you laugh?

~him~

26.this tag is specially dedicated to:

~meen

~whoever want to answer diz kind of question..u r allowed to do so..=)

kepelikan yang melanda

pelik dengan diri sendiri..tu jer perasaan yg mampu digambarkan ketika ini.sepanjang hampir 21 tahun bernafas di bumi Allah s.w.t ini,inilah kali pertama diri ini mengalami konflik perasaan seperti ini..sangat pelik!

everyone who closed to me realized this stranged plus weird things..i'm easily get angry and blame others for every mistake or wrongful doings..they said,i'm not like before.am i?hurmm..sangat weird..nak kata hormon tak stabil,rasenye sume in order.for me,i juz realized 1 thing..last few days,i was at home at that time..my bibik neighbour called my mum..ask if she need a new maid since we dun have any bibik yet..suddenly,i heard a very2 familiar voice.oh God!my ex bibik talking to my mum.ask for her forgiveness and all the @*^%^^** things!for me,i dun like the way she did!she had ask my mum permission to come to our home and she want to see me..ohhhh..please!stop all this nonsense things!can u bibik?my mum ask my opinion and i give my opinion as what all daughter around the world will give..mak,lets enjoy n chill out with me..dun stay at home..if not,u will see a big drama..hahahaa..kejam lak rasenye..

next,my best friend yang sudah sangat lame menghilangkan diri dan menukarkan num hp secara senyap2..hellloooo..u are not kids anymore sayang..plz dun behave like this..if awak ader masalah dengan saya,lets solve it together..bukan cara hilangkan diri and tiba2 buat comeback..helllooo.ingat buat comeback album ker?rasa kelakar pun ada dengan orang2 camni..at 1st place,i akan rasa sedikit bersalah and mula tak tentu arah..tapi,berlainan kali ni sebab i langsung buat tak tahu..macam takde ape2 yg terjadi..sebabnya,i sudah sangat penat melayan kerenah lelaki yang macam budak2..tak matang langsung..after a few months,he comeback to me..as what i'm expect to be..hahaha..i know u for 5 years okeyh..dah masak empuk dengan perangai camni..

yang pasti,ramai sudah bertanya mengenai status sekarang..rilex la dear..i'm okey..i'm alright..i'm just fine..hehe.azam tahun baru untuk tidak melibatkan diri dalam masalah..so,i have to stop myself from create a problem..appreciate ourself,family and my dear friends..and also for someone who really concern about me..every little things about me,he will realized and also gave me a very2 "honest yet dissapointed " remarks..hehe..but,i still appreciate him..thanks la yer..

kepada mereka yg suka menyusahkan..

dua hari jer lagi yg tinggal utk register class group..n seperti biasa la kan,masalah pendaftaran kat uitm ni tak penah setel..boleh giler la camni!kuota kelas dah bukak sampai 50 pun leh penuh lagi!yg datang kelas tu tak penah pun sampai 50..yg leh penuh pendaftaran tu keje sape?korang taw tak,korang tu menyusahkan orang lain?!dari semalam lagi angin tak berapa bagus sebab kes-kes camni..

tu baru kes pertama yg membuatkan diri ini rasa bengang tak tentu pasal..balik rumah,ader lagi makhluk-makhluk yg menambahkan beban kat kepala..haih..nak kena buat iklan utk cari penyewa baru lak..semuanya sebab terdapat beberapa makhluk yg mahukan sewa rumah yg murah+selesa tanpa memikirkan kos yg perlu dibayar untuk mendapatkan keselesaan itu.kalau rase-rase nak murah,sila cari inisiatif sendiri tanpa menyusahkan orang lain.buleyh?be matured kay!
ini tak,nak sewa murah,tapi duduk goyang kaki dengan mengharapkan pihak lain membuat sesuatu untuk kepentingan diri mereka..helllooo..pihak di sini boleh buat "sesuatu" untuk kepentingan anda semua..tunggu dan lihat jer..yg pasti,itu adalah harga yg perlu dibayar atas penat lelah dan usaha pihak di sini..

:sekian terima kaseyh:

lagu-lagu mengikut m00d masa kini

bunkface - situasi
estranged - yang pernah
hazami - kiblat
suki - siapa aku
alif - akan tiba
aizat - lagu kita
faizal tahir - coba
pink - so what
nidji - biarlah
nidji - sudah
nidji - hapus aku
colby caillat - magic

lagu-lagu yang mesti didengar setiap hari tanpa jemu..mungkin untuk membina kekuatan melalui lirik..pengorbanan terbesar untuk dia:membiarkan dia bahagia dengan orang lain: